There have been so many moments of pure joy, when I look into my son's eyes and feel so blessed to have brought such a special soul into the world. Along with the joy there have also been some struggles. As any mom knows learning how to get a lot done in short time spurts is essential. It has been especially hard for me to learn since I am the queen of procrastination and on top of that kind of a slob, I will admit it. Sometimes when I have free time all I want to do is veg out and watch TV but I am learning that my spare moments are precious and I try not to waste them.
I find myself thinking a lot about the past and the future. What I could/should have done and what I will do when I have more time. Which makes it kind of hard for me to enjoy the time that I have with my son right now. I know that just because I am a mom does not mean that I will not get to achieve all my personal goals. But sometimes it hard to even think about my dreams when I am changing 20 diapers a day, breastfeeding on demand all while cleaning the house, doing the laundry, food shopping and cooking ect..
All in all I am so thankful for my fearless warrior of a husband who is willing to do whatever it takes to support us so that I could be home with our child; that I have a safe and warm apartment to call home; a family that lives close by and that loves and supports me unconditionally and amazing friends that inspire me everyday. We all have good days and bad days and what helps me, especially when I am having a bad day, is being consciously aware of all the good things.
LOVE TO ALL
Beautifully written Nell - and a good window into what you're daily life is like. Thanks for being the best mommy and wife!
ReplyDeleteI love how honest and vulnerable you are in this post! It really reflects the beauty of who you are Nellie! xo
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